i dont know why i have to living my life just like this.
this is me. pathetic girl, cant stop mockin around. cant stay away from trouble.
am i just too fuck up?

ok, its almost 18years am ruining your life. and never make you proud.
thats enough reason for you so you can blame for all and pretending like i never imitate you.

what about tomorrow you left us again with all your work thingy for about 2 or 3 months please? i need a space for puzzling over my future. i love you, mom, its true because i have to. but i cant take this any longer. i cant stand crying over myself for being such a rebellious daughter.

mother, i miss your mom. even she passed away years ago, i still remember how she's loving you even she's not at your side when you grow up. she love me too, anyway. she love me much.

i miss you, mom. i miss you caring me.